fixing the jigsaw puzzle of her life

i would say it's God's grace that the saints came over my place to have a casual small gathering.talked about things and told them about my awful experiences in school.you know what i've just come to realise?the fact that im constantly trying to be as good as everyone else in school, being competitive and all, although my standards nowhere threatening to others, that i forgot to find rest and peace in Him.these few weeks were exhausting and draining.i've found out worst things going around and well..all i've got to do now is to move on and just stop thinking for a second.take one step at a time.then again,all things are easier said than done.i'll just have to learn to rely on Him every second of the day no matter what.or else..i won't know how much i have to struggle through this 'short' period of 2 yrs..or rather 1 and a half.all i want now is hope for everything to settle down and that i would stop complaining." And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you" 1Peter 5:10(: i thank You Lord, You work not by the world's system of so called 'justice' but by the power of grace.which explains the parable in matt 21?if im not wrong..
ohoh!highlight of the week!!CRESCENT SPEECH DAY(:(:(:!haha.i loveee going back and have that feeling of familarity.missed my favourite spot, netball court!and of cz my dearest team 6!couldnt stop feeling happy and laughing throughout the day until..everything ended.and well,good things never last.all those memories just started playing and replaying like some broken player.and well..my hands are peeling!just like how it did after obs..): how i wish i could remember studying materials as well as i can remember all my memories..
and He whispers words of love that gives you peace which surpasses all understanding(:

that's what a bored and exciting person will do in clean nice toilets(: what can i say, but it's the horrible HORRIBLE curse of THE TIE!which makes anyone sulk like melly here!hahaha

see!told you it's the tie.. my other love of my life!(: oh dear..i realise the trophies are too transparent to be seen. without them,there's no yanting like today(:

what's worse than losing something that cannot be replaced

today's a much MUCh better day(: ahha.thanks mel, for that short line of testimonial.and looks who's telling me not to be depressed!im utterly shocked.-gasps.this morning started off sleepy.was trying very hard to stay awake in meeting.after that it was fine.met up with stephanie to walk to mrt with and meet my pw grp.yup,was kinda dreading it..but surprisingly i was thinking during the meeting!haha.hmm..come to think of it.my whole day evolved only ard the pw meeting and nth else.oh,other than me finalising my decision.im just not prepared for the interrogation session that i foresee it coming.
im just glad that i have saints in church who are nice nicee people(:(: thank You Lord(:

all i have to do now is trust myself into YOUR hands and i know everything's gonna be fine. continue to guide and strengthen me through all YOUR trials that is to come..


ahhH!how cute can JJ get(:(:

it takes courage to believe in things that might not exist anymore

this week was one emotional roller coaster.it's just awful to know how cold this world can get.and insults just come one after another, non stop.it's like being slapped many many times on my poor face.call me over sensitive or anything, i might even have read too much into things, but im growing increasingly resentful towards people around me.well, let's just narrow this to people in school, of all ages i would say.thank you all so much for giving me such well-thought comments, that i guess is supposedly to help me do better in school huh.i really appreciate the fact that im constantly demolarized to such a level that i wish i never tried.i loathe jc life.it's sucking everything out of me that there might just be a possibility that i'll grow numb soon.i hope.

i love my crescent days(:(: sth to cheer me up once more!

reality?annoying.

it's surprising how the most immature people are the ones in teaching you.well,i just realise that not long ago.and i guess there are many more things i have yet to uncover to make me hate my surroundings even more than i already am.it's really gonna take a whole lot of effort out of me to settle down.and i just hope that im not putting others around me down by my frequent complains and occasional whining which i cant bring myself to do it cz it's depressing me even more.alrighties,im sounding depressed already!hahah.but i always feel better on weekends(:i thank God for the people around me who doesnt make me feel and act superficial, be it my feelings or decisions i make.and reality is one of the most ugliest thing that i ever got to know recently.and it's putting me down constantly..but all im thankful right now is that He has carry me through my days which i thought i'd never lived through(okay,dramatic.yes i know).looking forward to youth service later(:

pretty pretty lavender farm(:haha.random picture of the day!